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"The grass is not, in fact, always greener on the other side of the fence. Fences have nothing to do with it. The grass is greenest where it is watered. When crossing over fences, carry water with you and tend the grass wherever you may be."

Robert Fulghum
It Was on Fire When I Lay Down on It

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This is one my favorite articles in the book. It started when he saw several groups of people on the road holding signs and hitching for a ride.

"Anywhere but here"

"Somewhere else and back"

He stopped when he saw the second, intrigued by the sign and liking it at the same time. A group of people joined him in his truck. He asked about the sign and they said they liked it here because it is home. They just wanted to go some place else now. "Have you ever felt that way?", they asked. "Once every week," he replied.

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weekend

hmm.. bkt nga ba "weekend" ang tawag sa Sat and Sun samantalang Sunday ang first day of the week?

Saturday - restful

I slept at 3am, so my day began at around 2pm. I took a shower and had lunch at a nearby Chowking. Then, I went to Piandre to try the services they are offering at 50% off the regular price. I think I spent 2 hours for the Hair and Foot Spa. The promo also incuded a back massage for Php 625 (Hair Spa = 650 + Foot Spa = 600). Not bad.

Afterwards, I went to Glorietta and was able to buy a hard bound copy of It Was on Fire When I Lay Down on It by Robert Fulghum) at the Diplomat Booksale for only Php150. Not bad.

Fulghum is known for the book "All I Really Need to Know I Learned In Kindergarten" but I haven't read it. I once bought a copy but I gave it as a gift. But I have a copy of his Maybe (Maybe Not) Second Thoughts from A Secret Life which I got from a Gabay Rummage Sale for only Php25. Not bad.

I enjoy reading his writings on simple everyday things. I don't always get his ideas or agree with what he says but they make me think and ponder. His stories make me smile, laugh, teary-eyed, inspired. I hope I can live life like that. I'm trying.

I had burger and fries for dinner at Wendy's then went home (I meant boarding house. There's a big difference.). Keanna Reeves made my day (night) with her quotable quote on PBB.

Keanna while having a dispute with Mich:

"KFC ka kasi... ay, KSP pala." (something like that)


Sunday - painful

Got up from bed around 2pm and immidiaetly took a shower. I was planning to go to the mall to have a late lunch and buy some things. I was about to finish my bath when I felt a sharp pain in my lower abdomen and I started to get dizzy. This was not the first time and I knew it was going to be bad.

I managed to finish my bath and dried myself with the towel. I saw my face in the mirror -- pale and white. Breathing has becomed an effort.

I lied in bed with only a towel wrapped around me. After a while, I got up and got dressed. If I were alone in the room, I could have stayed undressed like that. My roommate woke up and started to talk to me. I can only manage to answer in 2 or 3 words. We've only been roommates for a few months so I tried hard to talk so she won't think I'm rude.

I couldn't stand the pain anymore so I asked her if she had any pain reliever (I have ran out of mefenamic acid). She didn't have any but she was kind enough to buy for me. I haven't eaten anything so I also asked her to get me something to eat, bread or something like that.

I was shaking when she handed me the medicine. I took it, had a small bite of the bread and lied down. God, it was so painful. I wished I would just die (well, half-wished only) but I know it wasn't yet time as no memories came flashing back and I couldn't see any light at the end of a tunnel.

Then, everything went dark and quiet. I don't know if I have lost consiousnes or have fallen asleep. It was already 430pm when I woke up. The pain was gone but I still felt a little light headed.

I have this almost every month. Sometimes the pain won't even let me sleep. So, if you've been burned and hurt in life, love, etc in terms of experience, I probably can't relate but with the pain that comes with it, I probably can.

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isang linggo na...

na sira ang telefono mobil ko.. (pero nakahiram ako ng 3315, so ok lng din; na-miss ko maglaro ng Snake!)

na walang text galing sa 'yo.. (pero ok lng din ulit)

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excerpt from Just Friends by Leah Castaqeda, Manila Standard

nakita ko sa lumang email.. naalala ko tuloy yun hirit na "warm, fuzzy, sunshiny feeling.." :D

Now, take this time out to find out what exactly this woman means to you. If the feeling she gives you is the warm, fuzzy, safe, sunshiny type, then you love her as a friend and clearly, that's all you want. She's definitely your pal, your buddy, your ka-tight, your ka-G.

But if the feeling you have for her inside consumes you, makes your heart pound whenever she's around, tortures you whenever she's not, and makes you slightly insane with the thought of her being with another guy and now that you're apart, has made your heart ache so much you can hardly breathe, pare, you're in love with her.

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bored ako

nand2 ako sa nueva at wala kaming cable dahil walang kuryente sa may area nun cable provider. hindi ko alam kung bakit.

buti na lang naayos na yun PC at medyo mabilis na sya ngaun. kelangan ko na din mag-log out maya maya dahil medyo mahal ang per minute (oo, dial-up ito).

isinasama ako nila mama sa bday nun kamag-anak namin. may dumating daw galing Vienna at matagl na syang hindi umuuwi. hindi ko nga sya kilala e. hindi ako sumama at medyo nainis sila sa kin dahil dun. pero ok lang, sanay naman na sila na ayokong sumasama sa ganun.

kelan kaya magkakaroon ng palabas sa tv??? hindi pa naman ako nagdala ng book dahil sabi ko manonood na lang ako ng tv pag-uwi ko. haay..

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phoneless

sira ang phone ko tapos walang stock ng LCD yun SE service center sa glorietta. tumawag din ako sa iba pang branch at sa semicon -- wala din.

hindi ko alam kung kelan magkakaroon kasi hindi din alam nun kausap ko. baka daw after 2 weeks or 1 month. waaah!!!

gamit ko yun 5110 dito sa bahay. mahina ang signal at mahirap magtext, actually yun cancel button lang ang mahirap gamitin.

sana mapahiram ako ng officemate ko ng extra phone nya. hindi ko pa alam kung anong model.

ang pinaka-problem ko pa, may 100+ na numbers na wala sa sim ko. hirap talaga ng madaming fans este friends. hehe

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the ipis killer..

9pm pa lang natulog na ko kagabi. Maaga kasi ang pasok ko this week at late ako nakakatulog noong mga nakakaraang araw. Ok na sana, kaso mga bandang 11pm, nagising ako. Tapos nakita ko na nakatayo yun roommate ko at kausap nya ata yun boyps nya sa fone.

Medyo napapasigaw siya pero pinipigil nya dahil ayaw nya ata ako magising. Tapos sabi nya, "Nagising ba kita? Sorry..."

Bumangon ako at ibinaba nya yun fone.

"May ipis kasi," sabi nya.

Medyo sabog pa ko at disoriented. Takot din ako sa ipis (lalo na pag lumilipad) pero dahil mas takot sya, kailangang maging matapang. hehe

Kumuha ko ng walis tapos inabutan nya ko ng pang-spray. Hindi Baygon, Crocodile ata yun brand. Tapos hawak naman nya yun maliit na desk lamp para ilawan yun ilalim ng kama dahil sumuot dun yun ipis.

Ayun, mukha kaming tanga kagabi. Pati ako napapatili at napapasigaw. Naririning kong tumatawa yun land lady namin sa baba. Tapos ang tagal ng buhay ng ipis. Kahit tinamaan ng walis at ni-spray-an ko na, buhay pa din.

Mga 10-15 minutes siguro kami na ganun. Pero napatay din sya in the end kahit muntik ng maubos yun pang-spray.

Bago matulog ulit, sabi ko sa kanya:

"Pano kung may Mother Ipis pala, tapos magising tayo bigla na kinakalabit ka sa pisngi? Pano kung gantihan nya tayo?"

Sabi nya, "Maghohotel ako ngayon din kahit maubos money ko."

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V-day

text namin ng tita ko kagabi..

Siya: Still celebrating Valentines? Where are you? [ang fishing! hehe]
Ako: Kakadating ko lang. Hindi ako lumabas, galing ako ng office. [at ang defensive.. haha]


text namin ni.. teka, ayoko pala ilagay ang name.

Ako: ..musta naman ang v-day mo?
Siya: ok lang. nakapagsabi naman ako ng "iloveyou" sa yo. so ok na yun..


YM kaninang umaga with A. Kams..

Siya: anong ginawa mo kagabi?
Ako: naglinis ng electric fan.. ayos db? [at least presko ang pagtulog ko.. hehe]

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Eurostar [mis]adventure!

I went there last Saturday -- Feb, 4, 2006 with 2 of my HS friends, Rowick and Hanna, and Neil (Han's boyps).


Eurostar Entrance


Flipper -->> Eto yun first ride ko. Maling decision..

Pero ok naman yun Flipper eh. Pikit ka lang saka sigaw, makakaya mo din kahit wala ka ng sense of direction.


5 minutes after ka bumaba na ride, ayan na. Nahihilo ako tapos nag-start na mag-numb yun both hands ko -- as in numb talaga! Hindi ko sya maideretso tapos ang bigat nya. Sunod nyan, yun tiyan ko naman ang nag-start mag-numb. Tapos, may involuntary movement na sa eyeballs ko.

Hirap din ako huminga at akala ko nagkakaroon na ko ng mild stroke.

3o minutes after, tumawag na ng Medic si Rowick. Sa gitna ng madaming tao, kinuha yun BP ko at pulse rate.

Well, hindi ko naman kasi talaga kaya yun ganyan na rides. Nagmagaling lang. hehe

After, 30 minutes ulit, dinala na ko sa clinic kasi hindi pa din ako ok kahit normal ang BP at pulse rate ko.

Nakatulog ako dun. Tapos after an hour, ok na ko (yata). Pero hindi ako makatingin sa mga rides dahil nahihilo ako pag nakikita ko.


sa labas ng clinic after ko bumalik sa normal na kulay


Carousel -->> o di ba, foreigners ulit ang nasa background. Parang wala ako sa Pilipinas.


Hanna and Me, habang nasa carousel. Pero hindi kami sa horse sumakay.


after ng carousel, picture muna with Pauleen Luna. hehehe


Next ride: ang Ferris Wheel (hindi ko lam yun tawag nila dito)


Rowick (the brave and the bold) and Me


view from the top

After nyan sa Log Jam kami sumakay pero walang picture. Fun ang ride na yun!


Ranger -->> parang Anchor's Away pero nag-360 degrees ata to. Hindi ako sumakay jan.


Joker -->> habang natutulog ako sa clinic, sumakay mag-isa si Rowick jan. Grabe, almost 2/3 ata ng Ferris Wheel ang taas nya tapos 360degrees ang ikot (10 times) habang umiikot din yun upuan.

Walang katabi si Rowik sa other end nun sumakay sya dahil hindi daw balanced. When asked kung sumigaw ba sya, ang sbi nya:

"Ang nasabi ko lang ay Oh My God". Ayos!


Booster -->> Habang umiikot yun malaking circle, umiikot din yun small circle tapos yun mismong upuan turns sideways and upside down.

Pagkatapos ng ride, bumalik yun naramdaman ko after ng Flipper (hindi na nadala!). Diretso kami sa Exit para humanap ng taxi dahil kailangan pa pumasok ni Rowick sa office.

Sumakay ako ng jeep sa Guadalupe. Akala ko hindi ako aabot ng Boarding House dahil nahihilo na naman ako. Pag dating sa kwarto, bagsak ako sa kama - nahihilo at namamanhid na naman ang kamay.

After an hour, ok na ulit ko. :)

Pero hindi ako nakatulog ng maayos. Nagigising ako from time to time dahil pakiramdam ko nahuhulog ako.

Isa lang masasabi ko, hindi na ko uulit!

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quote from A. Kams

"ikaw naman kasi yung tipo ng tao na hindi masyado nag-iisip ng kung ano ano about a situation... i mean no malice, no expectations and everything kaya nga saludo ako I look up to you sa mga ganung bagay."

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Dr. Miles

I was able to watch Medical Investigation for the first time last night (one of the rare times that I was able to watch tv, nowadays). It's like CSI and House combined.

Dr. Miles caught my attention because he seems familiar. He looks like Mark Bautista! :D

But that wasn't it. I think I've watched him somewhere else.

Towards the end of the show, I finally remembered. He's Harrison in the old series Popular. But I'm not too sure because I remember him as a short guy. He looks taller in Medical Investigation.

I IMDB'ed (haha new term!) him and found out that I was right. I liked him in Popular but I like him more in Medical Investigation.


Christopher Gorham


This is my favorite quote from the show:

[Sam asks her mom if she loves Mike (Brooke's dad), whom she's going to marry, more than her dad .]

Jane: "Love is always different, but it can be just as strong."


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Of course once your surfing IMBD you'll be clicking from link after link. Here's some things that I've found out:

Bryce Johnson (Josh Ford in Popular) appeared in 1 episode of Gilmore Girls. He was Lorelei's classmate at Hartford.

Christopher Gorham also appeared in Party of Five. I used to watch this but I can't remember much of the story.

Matthew Fox (Charlie Salinger in Party of Five) is Dr. Jack Shephard in Lost. Sabi ko na nga at familiar sya kahit hindi talaga ako nakakapanood pa ng Lost.

And it goes on and on...

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!@#$%^&*()_+

Magsusulat sana ako ng nakakatawang experience kahapon sa Makati Med. Nagpa-xray kasi ako dahil sa TMJ dysfunction (sakit ng mayaman). Kung mahirap ka, jaw lock ang tawag. Pero yun case ko, hindi talaga jaw lock kasi naigagalaw ko naman, yun nga lang masakit. Anyway, wala akong gana na magkwento tungkol dun.

Naiinis kasi ako. Hindi ko sigurado kung malapit na ko magalit. At hindi ko alam kung sa ibang tao o sa sarili ko.

Hindi ko rin alam kung bakit. Tingin ko naipon lang yun mga bagay bagay na nangyari. Ganun kasi ako, mas sensitive sa mga maliliit na bagay. (Mas na-appreciate ko din ang malilit na bagay kaysa sa mga 'big time' na pangyayari.)

Ang nakakainis pa, hindi nyo alam na ganito ang nararamdaman ko ngayon. Hindi nyo ata ako sineseryoso e. Pero pwede din naman na ako ang hindi nagte-take into consideration ng side nyo. Ewan.

Pagbigyan nyo na lang sana ko. Hayaan nyo kong magalit, mag-rant, mag-drama.

Hindi pwedeng puro na lang kayo. Ako naman.

Kahit hindi nyo nalalaman. Ok na sa kin yun.


[para sa bumabasa: kung hindi ka maka-relate, hindi ka kasali sa mga taong yan. Ok? Ok. :) ]

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one of the boys

Guess this is how it's going to be -- me and the boys.

The Sunnies were supposed to meet up last Saturday night but only Irone, Miguel, Adnan, Ryan, Noemer and me showed up. Someone asked, "Nasan yun iba?" to which I replied, "Sino pa bang hinahanap mo? Eto na yun." Then, we just laughed.

After dinner, Adnan left to attend a friend's birthday party. The five of us went to see Underworld 2. Only me and Miguel were able to watch the first movie but I think the others still enjoyed it.

We went to Metro Walk after the movie and had some drinks at a bar (I forgot the name). Irone got a chance to jam with the band and he played "The Day You Said Goodnight" on the guitar. After a couple of beers, Adnan arrived coming back from the bday party, so we ordered some more (sabi nga, mahaba habang inuman).

The "drinking spree" was followed by coffee at Starbucks where we were able to talk about some serious business. I will not talk about it here, though. Saka na lang pag nagkatotoo na.

Some quotable quotes [pero hindi ko lalagyan ng names. hehe]:

"San tayo kakain?"
"Tara, foodcourt.."
"Foodcourt? Hindi ba kayo pinapasweldo ng kumpanya nyo?"

"Dahil ako lang naman ang medyo babae dito, ako na magmi-mix nyan."

"Any jammer in here?"
"He plays the guitar. [pointing to Irone]"
"Anong tutugtugin ko? [getting up from the table]"
"Wag ka muna tumayo, kunwari ayaw mo.."

"Anong nafi-feel mo na ikaw lang ang babae dito?"
"Ok lang, sanay na. Kayo anong nafi-feel nyo na ako lang ang babae dito?"

"Mahal naman ng beer dito, 36."
"Mas mura dun sa kabilang table, 35 lang."
[akala nya price yun table number. may picture kasi ng beer]

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isipin mo na lang

Sung by: Bayang Barrios
Composed by: Mike Villegas
From the album: ALON

Nangangamba ka ba
Na ngayong malayo ka
Ako kaya ay magbago

Hinahanap ko ba sa iba ang ligaya
Ngayong tayo'y magkalayo

Manatili't huwag matinag
Sa pag-ibig mo ay bihag
Ang puso kong ito

Isipin mo na lang, ang ating samahan
At ang pag-ibig ko sa 'yo
Isipin mo na lang, ang ating samahan
At ang pag-ibig ko sa 'yo

Isipin mo na lang, ngayong natagpuan
Tunay na magmamahal sa akin
At ang nag-iisang hadlang
Ay ang pansamantalang paghihintay
Ba't di ko gagawin

Manatili't huwag matinag
Sa pag-ibig mo ay bihag
Ang puso kong ito

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Hindi ko alam kung bakit ko gusto yun song na ito. Napaka-moving nya para sa akin. Siguro dahil sa pagkakakanta.

Tapos, hindi ko din alam kung bakit sya theme song sa Ang Pagdadalaga ni Maxi. Kailangan ba related sa movie ang kanta?

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Had dinner and coffee with Janina kagabi. Daming kwento! hehe Ang sakit ng throat ko tuloy.

Pero ok yun pag-meet up namin. Just what I needed these days. :D

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my Keyboard is French

kaninang umaga sa phone:

Behrang (client from France): How do I get the quotes in Euro currency?

Ava: Here's the formula: Type in x, that would represent any stock you have in the series field, and then open parenthesis. Type P, that would be the datatype for Price, and then close parenthesis. After that, put a tilde sign and then E. [basically, it's x(P)~E]

Behrang: What's that? Can we start all over?

Ava: Ok. (then I repeated what I just said)

Behrang: What's a tilde sign?

Ava: That would be beside number 1 in the keyboard. Just press Shift..

Behrang: I'm using a French keyboard..

Ava: [after a few seconds] ooh.. Is that different?

Behrang: Yes..

Ava: Ooh.. Maybe I can just send you an email.

Behrang: Could you please do?

Upper Case

Lower Case

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happy bday ken!

3 years old na sya bukas.

Nakakatawa kasi college na ko nun ipinanganak sya kaya hindi nya ko nakikita palagi. Tapos, pag umuuwi ako dati, nagtataka sya kung sino ako. Tinitigan nya lang ako ng matagal. At madalas ayaw nya sumama sa kin.

Syempre, ngayon ok na kami. hehe

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prayer mountain

Rowick invited me to go with her to the Touch of Glory Prayer Mountain in Antipolo last Friday. The place was for 'Christians'.

We arrived at around 7pm. After registering and checking our dorm room, we attended a service. I'm not sure if all services were like that -- there was singing (maybe 3 songs) before the actual "service". Then, the "service" itself. And after that was a prayer.

We had dinner afterwards -- actually, there was no food by that time so we both had a sandwich.

Then, we sat on one of the benches outside and talked about life, love, God, religion. Around 1130pm, she went inside one of the prayer cells and I went back to the dorm. I told her I don't think I can pray inside the small room (I think it was 4ft x 4ft or smaller!) and I needed to hear noise to be able to concentrate.

The experience was nice. Though it was a bit akward since I think I'm the only Catholic there at that time. (Basta iba yun feeling..) And I think I was observing the place and the people half of the time.

Anyway, here are some pictures. Konti lang kasi nahihiya ako magpicture dahil yun mga tao nagppray.


That's my friend and this was taken at the "garden" a little above the dorms.


That's us before rain started to pour.

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"the" place

Kung totoo yun sinasabi dun sa book na The Five People You Meet in Heaven, alam ko na kung saan ako maghihintay.

Sana tama ako. :D

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bagong LSS..

I resolve to call him up
A thousand times a day
And ask him if he'll marry me
In some old fashioned way
But my silent fears have gripped me
Long before I reached the phone
Long before my tongue has stripped me
Must I always be alone

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superproxy!

Ang daming nag-react kahapon sa status ko: "sawa ka na ba sa mga hassle sa buhay mo?" Tapos lahat sila OO ang sagot.

LSS ko pa din siya hanggang ngayon. Actually, yun intro lang. Kainis kasi wala akong mahanap na chords/tabs.

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Habang nagsu-surf, nakita ko to:

"You don't have a soul. You are a Soul. You have a body."
-- CS Lewis.

Oo nga naman. :)

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